I would like to think of myself as a strong person. Given the things I’ve been put through and the things I’ve put other people through. I’ve overcame it all. Sometimes it still breaks me down inside. But, I try not to let it show. There’s only one person that has really hurt me to the point where I blame myself. What could I have done to make things right. What should I have done. What did I not do. It eats me up inside. It literally tears me, as a person, completely apart. He holds the pieces in his hands.
I built my life around him.
It sucks so bad to see the person you want.. to spend your entire life sit across the room watching you cry and feel no remorse. No sympathy. Doesn’t hold you. Doesn’t ask what is wrong.
How is that love? How is that appropriate behavior towards someone you share a home with?
I don’t really know what else to do at this point.
I dig deep down and try the strength I have left to do what I think I know I need to do.
Somehow it’s never enough. Somehow I always end up at this very spot. Time and time again.
What's wrong with Men on the east of US. You are not the first case that I hear. You both share the same situation. However, that other girl and I became friends and she gave me every detail of what was going on. After listening to her story, I realize that the best she could do was to leave him and go back the people who really care for her. I was afraid to tell her that, because I thought she was probably overreacting. But at the end, and after several more of her complaints, I told her she should leave him. I got to know her really well and realize that no matter what wrongs she had done in the past, she did not deserve this guy's neglect. She took my advice and thanked me for opening her eyes, but I never took it that way. I just saw an injustice and couldn't kept silence. She is now with her grandmother and working to continue her studies, since the guy had made her believe he was more important than her career.
ReplyDeleteNow, I don't know what you case is, and I'm not expert on marital stuff. However, I do believe that marriage should be cemented with love before anything else. You are a smart girl. I can tell for the way you express your self. So whatever you do, just remember that only God's love is one way only.
I simply don't get it.. Dudes these days are getting away with anything and everything. My mother taught me from an early stage in my life that chivalry is imperative. I can't remember the last time I've actually seen a guy open a door for another women. It bothers me knowing that there are awesome people out there willing to do "anything" for a chance to be noticed, but never do because of all the douches our there. It's odd how things really pan out for the "nice" guys. Sad really.
ReplyDeleteCouldn't agree more brother.
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