You learn not to care so much and put up walls when you've been hurt before. It's so very hard to let down those walls. For me mainly because I just can't understand how people can be so cruel. Why would you want to be cruel?
I'm oblivious. I've had a long hard couple of weeks.
Just some quick thoughts.
When is it time to grow up? I feel like I've been grown up my entire life. I just can't understand why someone that is 24 years old would want to hangout with 16, 17, 18 year old and party (etc.) I sure as hell like to hangout with people my own age.
Work is a wonderful thing. It feels good to earn something. Things that are just given to me, make me kind of feel worthless.
Please pray for my sister. She had gone in and they found a lump in her breast. They still do not know if it's cancer or not. Love you Allycat.
Congratulations to my best friend and cousin Kristen on her new baby, Zuri Marie. Beautiful baby girl. Love you!
Sorry for the short statements. I've been telling myself I need to get on here more, work has literally consumed my life.
I wake up Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays at 5:15am and Tuesdays and Fridays I wake up at 4:15am... I guess you gotta do what ya gotta do to make money!
On a good note... St. Patty's day was amazing! I had a wonderful time with some great friends! :)
Monday, March 19, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
HIPPIE DIPPIE PICS!
Here are some pictures of my Dipping Team, The Hippie Dippies!
We won best dressed!
Saturday, February 25, 2012
PLUNGING INTO FREEZING COLD WATER!
Okay so I have to hurry when I type this because I'm still in the midst of "Hippie'ing" myself up. I'm about to go and jump in Mel's Landings freezing cold river... for a good cause. This event raises money for family's in need in my community. My team is called the "Hippie Dippies" and it consists of 7 of my friends and myself. We are all dressing up as Hippies. We shirts premade that have the Dipping logo on the front and our team name on the back!
Here is a link on facebook if you want to see what it's all about!
https://www.facebook.com/#!/events/237905722944472/
WOOOO! GETTIN' READY TO FRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE!
BLESS YOU ALL!
(PICTURES SOON TO COME :) )
Here is a link on facebook if you want to see what it's all about!
https://www.facebook.com/#!/events/237905722944472/
WOOOO! GETTIN' READY TO FRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE!
BLESS YOU ALL!
(PICTURES SOON TO COME :) )
Friday, February 24, 2012
BEING A LEADER!
You know what really grinds my gears? People that go on power trips when the boss is gone. Sorry, but if you want people to respect you and your opinion at work you have to have good communication and people skills. What you DON'T do is disrespect people to try and make them do something that needs done.
So glad this lady is quitting Tuesday. But, being the professional person I am in a business area, I held my tongue, I did what I KNEW needed done and made sure I helped everyone else out when they needed it and when I had the free time.
THAT is what a person with leadership skills does.
I also cannot stand people who talk about you right in front of your face.
I'm sitting right here. I can see you both talking and looking over. If you really have something that you can't say in front of me, then obviously this moment is quite inconvenient and it should wait. I cannot stand being disrespected. That is one thing I cannot handle.
Also, I want to shout out to a follower of mine. His blog is called Lion's Heart.
He just recently wrote a blog that I was intertwined with. I really appreciated it. It truly made my day. I was really down in the dumps until I read all the wonderful and inspiring things he had said about me.
Please go check out his page. :)
http://lchavezr87.blogspot.com/
Now, I'm going to relax to some music and get my mind ready for the freezing cold water I'm going to endure tomorrow at the Toma Rutten Memorial Polar Bear Dip. I will be writing another blog later with more details!
THANKS for reading! Have a blessed day!
So glad this lady is quitting Tuesday. But, being the professional person I am in a business area, I held my tongue, I did what I KNEW needed done and made sure I helped everyone else out when they needed it and when I had the free time.
THAT is what a person with leadership skills does.
I also cannot stand people who talk about you right in front of your face.
I'm sitting right here. I can see you both talking and looking over. If you really have something that you can't say in front of me, then obviously this moment is quite inconvenient and it should wait. I cannot stand being disrespected. That is one thing I cannot handle.
Also, I want to shout out to a follower of mine. His blog is called Lion's Heart.
He just recently wrote a blog that I was intertwined with. I really appreciated it. It truly made my day. I was really down in the dumps until I read all the wonderful and inspiring things he had said about me.
Please go check out his page. :)
http://lchavezr87.blogspot.com/
Now, I'm going to relax to some music and get my mind ready for the freezing cold water I'm going to endure tomorrow at the Toma Rutten Memorial Polar Bear Dip. I will be writing another blog later with more details!
THANKS for reading! Have a blessed day!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
The Good, The Bad, The Drunk
Hello fellow readers. I don't know why, but this popped into my head and I just feel like I have to tell you all.
I cut back on my alcohol intake. (Every so often I do slip...)
I go out now and again but not as much as I used to.
My regular schedule was drinking 5 to 6 days out of the week give or take a couple of days where I would just sleep the day away.
Alcoholism runs in my family.
My Mom is an alcoholic my Aunt and Uncle.. My grandparents.
I knew I had hit a low point when I first tried to attend college.
(Notice how I said tried)
I didn't succeed at all.. and to try and help myself I only enrolled in two classes that semester so I could get a decent job and better my odds.
I spent all my rent money, food money, gas money on beer.
Not only was I horrible attending to my financials but, I was turning into a horrible person.
I am not at all exaggerating. I know now that some of the things I did, or said I can never change. As much as I still feel the guilt and the pain of all the things I've done I somehow gather up the strength to move ahead in life.
I had a hurt a lot of people when I was this person...
I sometimes look back like I was about 10 minutes ago and think, how could I have done that.
I used to get very violent too, towards others as well as myself.
I would get into fights voluntarily, most of them ended up being roommates of mine which lead to getting kicked out of all the places I moved into.
After living with 5 different friends, I ended up homeless and living in my car.
The sad thing was at the time living in my car didn't matter to me, as long as I had enough change in my ashtray to buy a 40oz. or anything for that matter.
One particular event has stuck with me, when my boyfriend at the time finally realized what kind of person I was.. he dumped me. I had around 10 dollars in change I walked to the gas station to get something to eat and I looked at my reflection in the window as I reached the door. I was so disgusted with myself. I walked in bought the first cheap bottle of booze that I could find and the first thing that popped into my head was I'm going to end this all before it can get any worse.
Now, obviously I never went through with it.. drove to a park downtown parked my car downed my bottle of booze and passed out.
I moved back in with my parents within that week. They helped me get a stable job.. get my life back on track.
5 years later, here I am.. in my own home.. going to school, full time job, boyfriend, 2 cats and a dog. Friends that I would die for, family that supports me. I have a happy little life.
Mind you, I still drink. I don't think I will ever quit drinking. I have learned to control myself. Only have 1 or 2 drinks to last the entire night.
Will power is the key sometimes I think my life is running on it.
If you know of someone who may be abusing alcohol or any other drugs
visit www.dosomething.org
Help them want to help themselves.
Bless you all.
I cut back on my alcohol intake. (Every so often I do slip...)
I go out now and again but not as much as I used to.
My regular schedule was drinking 5 to 6 days out of the week give or take a couple of days where I would just sleep the day away.
Alcoholism runs in my family.
My Mom is an alcoholic my Aunt and Uncle.. My grandparents.
I knew I had hit a low point when I first tried to attend college.
(Notice how I said tried)
I didn't succeed at all.. and to try and help myself I only enrolled in two classes that semester so I could get a decent job and better my odds.
I spent all my rent money, food money, gas money on beer.
Not only was I horrible attending to my financials but, I was turning into a horrible person.
I am not at all exaggerating. I know now that some of the things I did, or said I can never change. As much as I still feel the guilt and the pain of all the things I've done I somehow gather up the strength to move ahead in life.
I had a hurt a lot of people when I was this person...
I sometimes look back like I was about 10 minutes ago and think, how could I have done that.
I used to get very violent too, towards others as well as myself.
I would get into fights voluntarily, most of them ended up being roommates of mine which lead to getting kicked out of all the places I moved into.
After living with 5 different friends, I ended up homeless and living in my car.
The sad thing was at the time living in my car didn't matter to me, as long as I had enough change in my ashtray to buy a 40oz. or anything for that matter.
One particular event has stuck with me, when my boyfriend at the time finally realized what kind of person I was.. he dumped me. I had around 10 dollars in change I walked to the gas station to get something to eat and I looked at my reflection in the window as I reached the door. I was so disgusted with myself. I walked in bought the first cheap bottle of booze that I could find and the first thing that popped into my head was I'm going to end this all before it can get any worse.
Now, obviously I never went through with it.. drove to a park downtown parked my car downed my bottle of booze and passed out.
I moved back in with my parents within that week. They helped me get a stable job.. get my life back on track.
5 years later, here I am.. in my own home.. going to school, full time job, boyfriend, 2 cats and a dog. Friends that I would die for, family that supports me. I have a happy little life.
Mind you, I still drink. I don't think I will ever quit drinking. I have learned to control myself. Only have 1 or 2 drinks to last the entire night.
Will power is the key sometimes I think my life is running on it.
If you know of someone who may be abusing alcohol or any other drugs
visit www.dosomething.org
Help them want to help themselves.
Bless you all.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Tweet That!
Hey just wanted ya'll to know that I do also have a twitter account, I try and have daily updates! :)
www.twitter.com/mabellmichelle
Follow Me, Cuz I'm that awesome... ha~!
BLESS YOU ALL!
www.twitter.com/mabellmichelle
Follow Me, Cuz I'm that awesome... ha~!
BLESS YOU ALL!
Fishing For The Soul
I took my sister and my brother fishing... after the passing of my cousin, David.
It was his life. fishing.. he died doing what he loved.
It was such a beautiful day. I'm pretty sure he was there with us.
Love you David.
It was his life. fishing.. he died doing what he loved.
It was such a beautiful day. I'm pretty sure he was there with us.
Love you David.
Rest In Peace... We Miss You...
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
VALENTINE'S DAY
This day come and goes quickly. Also only works out 30% as planned.
Mine didn't work out at all. I can't wait for tomorrow.
I would rather be at work and working of my steam...
Goodnight everyone.
Happy Valentine's Day To Everyone.
Mine didn't work out at all. I can't wait for tomorrow.
I would rather be at work and working of my steam...
Goodnight everyone.
Happy Valentine's Day To Everyone.
Monday, February 13, 2012
My New Job
So I grew up raising hogs. My family had worked for a company for over 20 years breeding, farrowing, and weaning them.
My parents used to take me into the farm when I was little on the weekends, snow days, and holidays. Whenever I didn't have school I spent my free time taking care of these animals. I loved it.
The best part was being able to watch the gift of life. Watching the sows and gilts farrow and have babies is a miracle.
I also know that there a bunch of people who are against facilities such as Hog Farms because they think everyone mistreats animals. I can tell you that the animals I care for are spoiled. So, spoiled to the point where, one of the ladies I work with feeds her sows a piece of candy every now and again.
I'm so glad I got this job, I've missed my piggies. I feel at home again.
Now If I could only combine my future photography degree with my current job and my life would be... well almost perfect.
My parents used to take me into the farm when I was little on the weekends, snow days, and holidays. Whenever I didn't have school I spent my free time taking care of these animals. I loved it.
The best part was being able to watch the gift of life. Watching the sows and gilts farrow and have babies is a miracle.
I also know that there a bunch of people who are against facilities such as Hog Farms because they think everyone mistreats animals. I can tell you that the animals I care for are spoiled. So, spoiled to the point where, one of the ladies I work with feeds her sows a piece of candy every now and again.
I'm so glad I got this job, I've missed my piggies. I feel at home again.
Now If I could only combine my future photography degree with my current job and my life would be... well almost perfect.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Time & Time Again
I would like to think of myself as a strong person. Given the things I’ve been put through and the things I’ve put other people through. I’ve overcame it all. Sometimes it still breaks me down inside. But, I try not to let it show. There’s only one person that has really hurt me to the point where I blame myself. What could I have done to make things right. What should I have done. What did I not do. It eats me up inside. It literally tears me, as a person, completely apart. He holds the pieces in his hands.
I built my life around him.
It sucks so bad to see the person you want.. to spend your entire life sit across the room watching you cry and feel no remorse. No sympathy. Doesn’t hold you. Doesn’t ask what is wrong.
How is that love? How is that appropriate behavior towards someone you share a home with?
I don’t really know what else to do at this point.
I dig deep down and try the strength I have left to do what I think I know I need to do.
Somehow it’s never enough. Somehow I always end up at this very spot. Time and time again.
I built my life around him.
It sucks so bad to see the person you want.. to spend your entire life sit across the room watching you cry and feel no remorse. No sympathy. Doesn’t hold you. Doesn’t ask what is wrong.
How is that love? How is that appropriate behavior towards someone you share a home with?
I don’t really know what else to do at this point.
I dig deep down and try the strength I have left to do what I think I know I need to do.
Somehow it’s never enough. Somehow I always end up at this very spot. Time and time again.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Relax and Enjoy.
So today's my relax and recover day. (not for long since I got the job I interviewed for) :)
But, I like to sit around write on here, edit my videos, watch some Desperate Housewives with one of my favorite neighbors. But, today I believe it seems like a nice enough day to grab my camera and go for a walk. Just enjoy life.
After, I shall be frying so delicious chicken and making a 3 course meal! Little appetizer spinach dip with chips, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, baked veggies, and some lemon pie and pineapple ice-cream. YUMMY!!!!!!
I shall see you all tomorrow! Thanks for reading! :)
But, I like to sit around write on here, edit my videos, watch some Desperate Housewives with one of my favorite neighbors. But, today I believe it seems like a nice enough day to grab my camera and go for a walk. Just enjoy life.
After, I shall be frying so delicious chicken and making a 3 course meal! Little appetizer spinach dip with chips, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, baked veggies, and some lemon pie and pineapple ice-cream. YUMMY!!!!!!
I shall see you all tomorrow! Thanks for reading! :)
Sunday, February 5, 2012
The Lonliest Smile Of All
This is my life. I've been called a lot of things. Supposedly I'm Crazy, Dramatic, an Over exaggerator, right down to a B*tch. But the way I see it I just react how I think I should when people cross me over.
Just like everyone else I have a lot of problems I try to overlook in life. A lot of problems I probably should deal with, while others I shouldn't give to shits about.
I have a lot going for me, but I still degrade myself. I never let myself have more confidence than I should because I just let myself down. I am a giver... and I rarely receive. I have always worn my heart on my sleeve.
Since, I knew what love was I was willing to let anyone try and love me. I paste a fake smile on my face when I'm sad, and I cry alone in my room at night so nobody knows my pain. I secretly break easily but, am too stubborn to let it show.
I will admit it took a rough 24 years to get to where I am today. To be able to admit the things I know I should change and try and do something about it. That's where I'm at right now in life. I'm trying to better myself as a person the way I think I see fit. I have support from my best of friends, and I could never thank them enough. But, my backbone, the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with could care less.
Sometimes, I feel like I let people treat me the way they do to punish myself for all the bad things I've ever done. My own taste of Karma if you will.
I wasn't a "horrible" person back in the day, but I wasn't the nicest. Sometimes I meant well, other times I took peoples good charities for guaranteed.
All in all I think I've pretty much learned from my experiences even though I've had some pretty bad ones. I'm going to keep doing what I think is right when it comes to me and the person I'm becoming.
Just like everyone else I have a lot of problems I try to overlook in life. A lot of problems I probably should deal with, while others I shouldn't give to shits about.
I have a lot going for me, but I still degrade myself. I never let myself have more confidence than I should because I just let myself down. I am a giver... and I rarely receive. I have always worn my heart on my sleeve.
Since, I knew what love was I was willing to let anyone try and love me. I paste a fake smile on my face when I'm sad, and I cry alone in my room at night so nobody knows my pain. I secretly break easily but, am too stubborn to let it show.
I will admit it took a rough 24 years to get to where I am today. To be able to admit the things I know I should change and try and do something about it. That's where I'm at right now in life. I'm trying to better myself as a person the way I think I see fit. I have support from my best of friends, and I could never thank them enough. But, my backbone, the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with could care less.
Sometimes, I feel like I let people treat me the way they do to punish myself for all the bad things I've ever done. My own taste of Karma if you will.
I wasn't a "horrible" person back in the day, but I wasn't the nicest. Sometimes I meant well, other times I took peoples good charities for guaranteed.
All in all I think I've pretty much learned from my experiences even though I've had some pretty bad ones. I'm going to keep doing what I think is right when it comes to me and the person I'm becoming.
Friday, February 3, 2012
SUGAR MOMMA!?
SO I'm pretty excited that I'm pretty sure I'll be getting the job I interviewed for. I was really nervous when I first got there but 4 minutes in I was just my quirky old self.
BUT, I have this annoying habit... when I get nervous or really excited...
I have trouble pronouncing my words so it's almost a stutter... Or I'll even say my sentences all mixed up and out of order.
SO embarrassing.
I counted only 3 times it happened.. thank goodness.
AND out of ALL things that could happen, my eye started to twitch right after he asked me the question "What are your strengths as a person."
Oh. My. God.
At that split second all I could think about was my eye twitching and wondering if they could tell my eye was twitching, so I tried to bullshit them about my strengths and talked in a circle pretty much.
*ugh*
Of course, one of the interviewers knew my boyfriend... and I told them, I needed a FULL time job to you know, pay my half of the bills and sooner or later invest in a house and a family and all that jazz, and this guy was all... So Daniel needs a "Sugar Momma". My mouth dropped. This came out of a 50 year old or older male mouth in an INTERVIEW!
HA HA!
If I don't get this job I'm going to admit myself into an insane-asylum.
Bless you all for reading! :)
BUT, I have this annoying habit... when I get nervous or really excited...
I have trouble pronouncing my words so it's almost a stutter... Or I'll even say my sentences all mixed up and out of order.
SO embarrassing.
I counted only 3 times it happened.. thank goodness.
AND out of ALL things that could happen, my eye started to twitch right after he asked me the question "What are your strengths as a person."
Oh. My. God.
At that split second all I could think about was my eye twitching and wondering if they could tell my eye was twitching, so I tried to bullshit them about my strengths and talked in a circle pretty much.
*ugh*
Of course, one of the interviewers knew my boyfriend... and I told them, I needed a FULL time job to you know, pay my half of the bills and sooner or later invest in a house and a family and all that jazz, and this guy was all... So Daniel needs a "Sugar Momma". My mouth dropped. This came out of a 50 year old or older male mouth in an INTERVIEW!
HA HA!
If I don't get this job I'm going to admit myself into an insane-asylum.
Bless you all for reading! :)
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Hey fellow bloggers! I'm a little nervous today... Besides the fact that I got like 5 hours of sleep, I have an interview in like 4 hours...
YIKES!
I just have to remember the 3 C's.. Cool, Calm, Confident...
Hopefully I don't blow it. I guess if I do I can always find something else...
OH and I finally got my video to upload last night... That's sort of why I was up ALL night... It literally took like 4 or so Hours to download...
REDIC!
anyway, go watch it at www.youtube.com/themeshellmybell
I'm not gona lie, I cried..
Have a blessed day bloggers!
YIKES!
I just have to remember the 3 C's.. Cool, Calm, Confident...
Hopefully I don't blow it. I guess if I do I can always find something else...
OH and I finally got my video to upload last night... That's sort of why I was up ALL night... It literally took like 4 or so Hours to download...
REDIC!
anyway, go watch it at www.youtube.com/themeshellmybell
I'm not gona lie, I cried..
Have a blessed day bloggers!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Another Angel...
Rest In Peace Zachary Tharnish...
You put up a hell of a fight and We will see you again someday...
You put up a hell of a fight and We will see you again someday...
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Frustration
So I'm having a bit of trouble uploading the video I blogged about earlier...
It's actually really frustrating to me. All my other video's uploaded and now I can't figure out why this one is taking so darn long.
Oh well, I guess I'll try again tomorrow if it doesn't finish in the next hour.
I need my sleep.
I didn't get half the school work done that I would have liked and I have an interview to prepare for on Thursday. I'm a little nervous.
Well, thanks to everyone that is stopping by to read my blogs and going to my YouTube channel to watch my videos. I really appreciate it.
Bless you!
It's actually really frustrating to me. All my other video's uploaded and now I can't figure out why this one is taking so darn long.
Oh well, I guess I'll try again tomorrow if it doesn't finish in the next hour.
I need my sleep.
I didn't get half the school work done that I would have liked and I have an interview to prepare for on Thursday. I'm a little nervous.
Well, thanks to everyone that is stopping by to read my blogs and going to my YouTube channel to watch my videos. I really appreciate it.
Bless you!
Prayer Page and Charities
Okay so I had a pretty good time last night, talking to friends, drank a beer and so on... Until my friends 2 year old ripped out my nose ring!
IT HURT.. SOOOOOOOOO.. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. BAD!
I really wanted to cry to be honest. But, then I was thinking, a 2 year old is NOT allowed to make you cry. haha.
I made a vlog yesterday talking about a friend that has been in a car accident and that is currently in the ICU. please check it out
www.youtube.com/themeshellmybell
Here is the prayer page for Zach
If you would like to say a little prayer for him...
Or visit the page and say it there, either one would be appreciated.
Bless you all!
https://www.facebook.com/groups/141389399313357/?ref=notif¬if_t=group_activity
I also mention in the vlog about the game WeTopia.
Pretty much you play to give to charities.
It's pretty fantastic.
http://apps.facebook.com/wetopia
IT HURT.. SOOOOOOOOO.. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. BAD!
I really wanted to cry to be honest. But, then I was thinking, a 2 year old is NOT allowed to make you cry. haha.
I made a vlog yesterday talking about a friend that has been in a car accident and that is currently in the ICU. please check it out
www.youtube.com/themeshellmybell
Here is the prayer page for Zach
If you would like to say a little prayer for him...
Or visit the page and say it there, either one would be appreciated.
Bless you all!
https://www.facebook.com/groups/141389399313357/?ref=notif¬if_t=group_activity
I also mention in the vlog about the game WeTopia.
Pretty much you play to give to charities.
It's pretty fantastic.
http://apps.facebook.com/wetopia
Monday, January 30, 2012
YOUTUBE
Hey fellow bloggers!
I've been pretty busy today editing videos that I planned on adding before today is over. If not they shall be up mid morning.
Today has been a very fast day, It feels like I've just woken up and I've been sitting in the same chair aaaaall day long...
Have a great night everyone!
www.youtube.com/themeshellmybell
Check me out! Comment, Subscribe and Share!
Bless you all!
I've been pretty busy today editing videos that I planned on adding before today is over. If not they shall be up mid morning.
Today has been a very fast day, It feels like I've just woken up and I've been sitting in the same chair aaaaall day long...
Have a great night everyone!
www.youtube.com/themeshellmybell
Check me out! Comment, Subscribe and Share!
Bless you all!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
A Successful Night...
I was having a hard time last night. To begin with I was becoming super depressed over the loss of my cousin... and it seemed like everything that happened that day just reminded me of him. It was like rubbing salt in a fresh wound...
Anyway, I decided to go hangout with some friends and family and it was a absolute blast! We decided to celebrate my sister and my cousin, Taylor's, Birthdays. Not only their Birthday but my Mom's Birthday too which my mom went out of town for, but showed up later on in the night and proceeded to take shots with everyone. :)
And of course my dad being the absolute comedian that he is, started telling his favorite jokes. I got a few on video that I will soon upload to YouTube on my YouTube channel once I figure out how to convert them.
All and all it was a successful night and I had a lot of fun. Had a bit of a hangover this morning and couldn't get out of bed til noon... But, sometimes that's exactly what a person needs.
If you want to check out the videos on my YouTube channel
click this link http://www.youtube.com/user/TheMeshellmybell
Thanks for reading and have a blessed day!
Anyway, I decided to go hangout with some friends and family and it was a absolute blast! We decided to celebrate my sister and my cousin, Taylor's, Birthdays. Not only their Birthday but my Mom's Birthday too which my mom went out of town for, but showed up later on in the night and proceeded to take shots with everyone. :)
And of course my dad being the absolute comedian that he is, started telling his favorite jokes. I got a few on video that I will soon upload to YouTube on my YouTube channel once I figure out how to convert them.
All and all it was a successful night and I had a lot of fun. Had a bit of a hangover this morning and couldn't get out of bed til noon... But, sometimes that's exactly what a person needs.
If you want to check out the videos on my YouTube channel
click this link http://www.youtube.com/user/TheMeshellmybell
Thanks for reading and have a blessed day!
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Knock Me Down..Again.
I'm in the process of trying to find God...
Everything after this decision has been shaking my Faith.
I just don't understand how people so young can get taken away so early. It's not fair. But I'm supposed to believe that earth was just a journey to their actual home in Heaven. Well while this might be the truth... than am I supposed to feel selfish for not wanting them to leave?
I guess. I'm more confused than I was when I started on this endeavour.
It's just so hard.
I don't want to admit that he's gone, but every little horrible thing that happens to my friends or family... reminds me that he is.
I don't know. Maybe it's just not my time to start believing.
I try but it's almost like it hurts even worse.
Just a few thoughts I had.
Bless you all.
Everything after this decision has been shaking my Faith.
I just don't understand how people so young can get taken away so early. It's not fair. But I'm supposed to believe that earth was just a journey to their actual home in Heaven. Well while this might be the truth... than am I supposed to feel selfish for not wanting them to leave?
I guess. I'm more confused than I was when I started on this endeavour.
It's just so hard.
I don't want to admit that he's gone, but every little horrible thing that happens to my friends or family... reminds me that he is.
I don't know. Maybe it's just not my time to start believing.
I try but it's almost like it hurts even worse.
Just a few thoughts I had.
Bless you all.
Busy Bee
Busy Busy Busy day today!
Had to work, clean the house, and my Welcome booklet and Student I.D. came in the mail today! I just recently enrolled in the New York Institute of Photography.
Photography is a passion of mine and I am really excited to get started!
I think it's about time for a little tiny nap... Yes, that sounds like a brilliant idea.
Thank you so much for reading and have a blessed day!
Had to work, clean the house, and my Welcome booklet and Student I.D. came in the mail today! I just recently enrolled in the New York Institute of Photography.
Photography is a passion of mine and I am really excited to get started!
I think it's about time for a little tiny nap... Yes, that sounds like a brilliant idea.
Thank you so much for reading and have a blessed day!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Amo Té
If ya ask me, tonight is a good night for sitting around a wood stove, drinking a glass and relaxing with some friends. (which I am about to do in 10 minutes)
:)
It's days like today I'm glad I've finally found the true friends I need and the ones that I know will always be by my side.
I'm very thankful for everything I have in life. Truly blessed.
Some days I forget this, but it's days like today that make me wonder how it could have slipped my mind.
Anyways. I may post a couple pictures of tonight's fun.
Thank you all for reading and have a blessed night!
If anyone would like to check out more about the wine i'm about to take a sip of, here is the James Arthur Vineyards website!
http://www.jamesarthurvineyards.com/
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Photolicious ( I just said that... )
I've been going through almost like a midlife crisis, and hell I'm only 24.
I'm slowly getting my life back. Slowly weeding out all of the unneeded nonsense that my day somehow always ends with.
I enrolled in the New York University of Photography... I'm very excited about this.
I've always wanted to become a professional photographer.
More freelance than anything. My dream is to be my own boss doing what I absolutely love to do. Well, step 1 is in the making.
I hope you all are looking forward to a bunch of my projects being uploaded onto my blog :)
I would love the comments, reviews, the good and the bad.
Thanks so much for reading, and double thanks if you decide to follow my blog.
It means a lot to me.
Michelle
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