You learn not to care so much and put up walls when you've been hurt before. It's so very hard to let down those walls. For me mainly because I just can't understand how people can be so cruel. Why would you want to be cruel?
I'm oblivious. I've had a long hard couple of weeks.
Just some quick thoughts.
When is it time to grow up? I feel like I've been grown up my entire life. I just can't understand why someone that is 24 years old would want to hangout with 16, 17, 18 year old and party (etc.) I sure as hell like to hangout with people my own age.
Work is a wonderful thing. It feels good to earn something. Things that are just given to me, make me kind of feel worthless.
Please pray for my sister. She had gone in and they found a lump in her breast. They still do not know if it's cancer or not. Love you Allycat.
Congratulations to my best friend and cousin Kristen on her new baby, Zuri Marie. Beautiful baby girl. Love you!
Sorry for the short statements. I've been telling myself I need to get on here more, work has literally consumed my life.
I wake up Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays at 5:15am and Tuesdays and Fridays I wake up at 4:15am... I guess you gotta do what ya gotta do to make money!
On a good note... St. Patty's day was amazing! I had a wonderful time with some great friends! :)
Monday, March 19, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
HIPPIE DIPPIE PICS!
Here are some pictures of my Dipping Team, The Hippie Dippies!
We won best dressed!
Saturday, February 25, 2012
PLUNGING INTO FREEZING COLD WATER!
Okay so I have to hurry when I type this because I'm still in the midst of "Hippie'ing" myself up. I'm about to go and jump in Mel's Landings freezing cold river... for a good cause. This event raises money for family's in need in my community. My team is called the "Hippie Dippies" and it consists of 7 of my friends and myself. We are all dressing up as Hippies. We shirts premade that have the Dipping logo on the front and our team name on the back!
Here is a link on facebook if you want to see what it's all about!
https://www.facebook.com/#!/events/237905722944472/
WOOOO! GETTIN' READY TO FRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE!
BLESS YOU ALL!
(PICTURES SOON TO COME :) )
Here is a link on facebook if you want to see what it's all about!
https://www.facebook.com/#!/events/237905722944472/
WOOOO! GETTIN' READY TO FRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZE!
BLESS YOU ALL!
(PICTURES SOON TO COME :) )
Friday, February 24, 2012
BEING A LEADER!
You know what really grinds my gears? People that go on power trips when the boss is gone. Sorry, but if you want people to respect you and your opinion at work you have to have good communication and people skills. What you DON'T do is disrespect people to try and make them do something that needs done.
So glad this lady is quitting Tuesday. But, being the professional person I am in a business area, I held my tongue, I did what I KNEW needed done and made sure I helped everyone else out when they needed it and when I had the free time.
THAT is what a person with leadership skills does.
I also cannot stand people who talk about you right in front of your face.
I'm sitting right here. I can see you both talking and looking over. If you really have something that you can't say in front of me, then obviously this moment is quite inconvenient and it should wait. I cannot stand being disrespected. That is one thing I cannot handle.
Also, I want to shout out to a follower of mine. His blog is called Lion's Heart.
He just recently wrote a blog that I was intertwined with. I really appreciated it. It truly made my day. I was really down in the dumps until I read all the wonderful and inspiring things he had said about me.
Please go check out his page. :)
http://lchavezr87.blogspot.com/
Now, I'm going to relax to some music and get my mind ready for the freezing cold water I'm going to endure tomorrow at the Toma Rutten Memorial Polar Bear Dip. I will be writing another blog later with more details!
THANKS for reading! Have a blessed day!
So glad this lady is quitting Tuesday. But, being the professional person I am in a business area, I held my tongue, I did what I KNEW needed done and made sure I helped everyone else out when they needed it and when I had the free time.
THAT is what a person with leadership skills does.
I also cannot stand people who talk about you right in front of your face.
I'm sitting right here. I can see you both talking and looking over. If you really have something that you can't say in front of me, then obviously this moment is quite inconvenient and it should wait. I cannot stand being disrespected. That is one thing I cannot handle.
Also, I want to shout out to a follower of mine. His blog is called Lion's Heart.
He just recently wrote a blog that I was intertwined with. I really appreciated it. It truly made my day. I was really down in the dumps until I read all the wonderful and inspiring things he had said about me.
Please go check out his page. :)
http://lchavezr87.blogspot.com/
Now, I'm going to relax to some music and get my mind ready for the freezing cold water I'm going to endure tomorrow at the Toma Rutten Memorial Polar Bear Dip. I will be writing another blog later with more details!
THANKS for reading! Have a blessed day!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
The Good, The Bad, The Drunk
Hello fellow readers. I don't know why, but this popped into my head and I just feel like I have to tell you all.
I cut back on my alcohol intake. (Every so often I do slip...)
I go out now and again but not as much as I used to.
My regular schedule was drinking 5 to 6 days out of the week give or take a couple of days where I would just sleep the day away.
Alcoholism runs in my family.
My Mom is an alcoholic my Aunt and Uncle.. My grandparents.
I knew I had hit a low point when I first tried to attend college.
(Notice how I said tried)
I didn't succeed at all.. and to try and help myself I only enrolled in two classes that semester so I could get a decent job and better my odds.
I spent all my rent money, food money, gas money on beer.
Not only was I horrible attending to my financials but, I was turning into a horrible person.
I am not at all exaggerating. I know now that some of the things I did, or said I can never change. As much as I still feel the guilt and the pain of all the things I've done I somehow gather up the strength to move ahead in life.
I had a hurt a lot of people when I was this person...
I sometimes look back like I was about 10 minutes ago and think, how could I have done that.
I used to get very violent too, towards others as well as myself.
I would get into fights voluntarily, most of them ended up being roommates of mine which lead to getting kicked out of all the places I moved into.
After living with 5 different friends, I ended up homeless and living in my car.
The sad thing was at the time living in my car didn't matter to me, as long as I had enough change in my ashtray to buy a 40oz. or anything for that matter.
One particular event has stuck with me, when my boyfriend at the time finally realized what kind of person I was.. he dumped me. I had around 10 dollars in change I walked to the gas station to get something to eat and I looked at my reflection in the window as I reached the door. I was so disgusted with myself. I walked in bought the first cheap bottle of booze that I could find and the first thing that popped into my head was I'm going to end this all before it can get any worse.
Now, obviously I never went through with it.. drove to a park downtown parked my car downed my bottle of booze and passed out.
I moved back in with my parents within that week. They helped me get a stable job.. get my life back on track.
5 years later, here I am.. in my own home.. going to school, full time job, boyfriend, 2 cats and a dog. Friends that I would die for, family that supports me. I have a happy little life.
Mind you, I still drink. I don't think I will ever quit drinking. I have learned to control myself. Only have 1 or 2 drinks to last the entire night.
Will power is the key sometimes I think my life is running on it.
If you know of someone who may be abusing alcohol or any other drugs
visit www.dosomething.org
Help them want to help themselves.
Bless you all.
I cut back on my alcohol intake. (Every so often I do slip...)
I go out now and again but not as much as I used to.
My regular schedule was drinking 5 to 6 days out of the week give or take a couple of days where I would just sleep the day away.
Alcoholism runs in my family.
My Mom is an alcoholic my Aunt and Uncle.. My grandparents.
I knew I had hit a low point when I first tried to attend college.
(Notice how I said tried)
I didn't succeed at all.. and to try and help myself I only enrolled in two classes that semester so I could get a decent job and better my odds.
I spent all my rent money, food money, gas money on beer.
Not only was I horrible attending to my financials but, I was turning into a horrible person.
I am not at all exaggerating. I know now that some of the things I did, or said I can never change. As much as I still feel the guilt and the pain of all the things I've done I somehow gather up the strength to move ahead in life.
I had a hurt a lot of people when I was this person...
I sometimes look back like I was about 10 minutes ago and think, how could I have done that.
I used to get very violent too, towards others as well as myself.
I would get into fights voluntarily, most of them ended up being roommates of mine which lead to getting kicked out of all the places I moved into.
After living with 5 different friends, I ended up homeless and living in my car.
The sad thing was at the time living in my car didn't matter to me, as long as I had enough change in my ashtray to buy a 40oz. or anything for that matter.
One particular event has stuck with me, when my boyfriend at the time finally realized what kind of person I was.. he dumped me. I had around 10 dollars in change I walked to the gas station to get something to eat and I looked at my reflection in the window as I reached the door. I was so disgusted with myself. I walked in bought the first cheap bottle of booze that I could find and the first thing that popped into my head was I'm going to end this all before it can get any worse.
Now, obviously I never went through with it.. drove to a park downtown parked my car downed my bottle of booze and passed out.
I moved back in with my parents within that week. They helped me get a stable job.. get my life back on track.
5 years later, here I am.. in my own home.. going to school, full time job, boyfriend, 2 cats and a dog. Friends that I would die for, family that supports me. I have a happy little life.
Mind you, I still drink. I don't think I will ever quit drinking. I have learned to control myself. Only have 1 or 2 drinks to last the entire night.
Will power is the key sometimes I think my life is running on it.
If you know of someone who may be abusing alcohol or any other drugs
visit www.dosomething.org
Help them want to help themselves.
Bless you all.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Tweet That!
Hey just wanted ya'll to know that I do also have a twitter account, I try and have daily updates! :)
www.twitter.com/mabellmichelle
Follow Me, Cuz I'm that awesome... ha~!
BLESS YOU ALL!
www.twitter.com/mabellmichelle
Follow Me, Cuz I'm that awesome... ha~!
BLESS YOU ALL!
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