I've been very busy the past couple of weeks, trying to find a way to get a job without a working vehicle... Still nothing. It seems like all I really have is my damn computer. Now, If only I could make money off of here I would be set. I'm bound and determined to do this on my own. It is really hard though... 'Specially when I live in a dinky ass town and the only real jobs are in the surrounding towns. Sitting at home gives me a lot of time to think. Think about things I need to think about, but also think about things that shouldn't even matter anymore. It sort of drives me to the brink of insanity sometimes... Sometimes I feel like I don't know where to turn or who to talk to because I hear the same thing over and over again. I just feel like my options are very limited. If it weren't for Daniel, I don't know where I would be right now. People look at us and think I take him for granted. I probably do. I don't think I could ever thank him enough for being supportive and helpful. I love him.
I have also began to think about my relationships outside of my intimate one with him. My friendships that is. I really think it's time to dump some people that I think are holding me back. Sometimes I think I'm only friends with some certain people because I think I have to be. This person's friends with this person and if I'm not at least trying to be friends with them than all hell breaks loose. Well, I'm done with all that bullcr*p. Especially when these people that your friends with, your nothing but nice to them...your a shoulder for them to cry on and an ear for them to listen. I'm done, and I need to focus on my life, I need to better my life and I don't need to deal with the everyday bullcr*p that these people bring into my life.
I'm ready for a new beginning. I'm ready for change. I just hope every ones ready for me. :)
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